farm musings

[endotoxin]

It's wintertime, so we aren't getting as many eggs from our chickens. That means we can switch back to having hummus for breakfast, which I enjoy, and which is healthier than eating eggs every day for months at a go.

I'm starting to worry a bit about my health. I'm drinking more than 2 units of alcohol on a almost daily basis, and I need to stop.

I want to get back on my bike. I need to start making time to just hop on my trainer for like 5 minutes.

My arms don't hurt as bad, but typing is still pretty painful.

I haven't used this journal format in a while, and I tend to write all my updates in a private cloud app, but I think I'd like to resume typing things up here. Even if I don't really get much interaction, it's nice to have this venue as an alternative to Facebook.

Comments

[yarrowkat]

i was in a similar boat with alcohol until recently; 2 a night almost every night, three regularly enough that i didn't want to think too hard about it but also felt bad about it. and i think it increases my depression and inclination toward hopelessness. when i started dating Leslie, who is sober, i necessarily stopped drinking on nights i see them - and since i'm seeing them 1-2 times a week, that actually made a surprising amount of difference fast. in 5 months i find that i am now having one drink 2-4x/week and that feels like an enormous reduction and corresponding improvement to my health.

not that "start dating a sober person" is broadly applicable life advice or anything. but maybe there's something that can help you change the pattern.

[endotoxin]

Poly alcohol therapy: Get another partner, you'll be too busy to drink.

I've decided I'm going to start metering my doses, that way I can track cutting back more easily. Also, I need better sleep. And while alcohol relaxes me enough to be able to climb into bed, it utterly fucks my ability to maintain deep rest.

[cyprinella]

it utterly fucks my ability to maintain deep rest.

Oh man do I feel that. My digestive system mostly made the choices for me but hooboy do I know when I decide to ignore that. Sleep like crap for multiple reasons. I got myself a Fitbit in early spring and I can literally chart sleep disturbances.

[endotoxin]

I'd love a Fitbit or something similar. Alas my employer bans such geegaws cause aint no security like federally mandated security.

[cyprinella]

Yeah, I got one of the older ones that are less invasive and even then when I turn the GPS app on for stuff, it's pretty disconcerting. I say, carrying a cellphone everywhere. I should ask my husband about Fitbits at his office. I know he can't bring in his phone.

[yarrowkat]

yes, it can definitely have that effect. metering is a good idea.

may i recommend kava tea to support deep rest? it also can make you a little loopy, which may provide a little bit of the (i presume desired) numbing effect of alcohol.

[endotoxin]

We do keep kava tea on hand. I'm saving it so H can use it during recuperation. We also have hand-harvested Dwarf Lousewort from the Manzanos, and passionflower extract.

Plenty of stuff to make a nice sleeping potion. I just, yaknow, prefer tequila. 😜